tell me please

i want to make ahome i want to be a home i want to live with someone i want to be loved i dont want to work outside but i must i have something that must be said i have something for others to hear so will hear some wont no need to say - what i believe is truth - all else is false - need to be sure it is truth - need to know - tell me please -

today was like this

some dreams shock you awake - casting your awareness forcibly into the elements with no regard as to whether it is a new day yet or not - you are shaken and held captive in mind and body until both can either grasp the meaning(s) or they are driven back into the darkness from where they came

some dreams knock persistently until your awareness shifts and you are awake - whether new day or not it is either time to leave slumber's bliss or your sleep needs a moment of consciousness to reset to another position - you cast about to know and either rise or return to slumber's bliss

some dreams gently coax you awake - knowing a day dawns and that in the majesty of new life as the sun rises not a minute is to be missed - thanks comes to your lips, you rise and do what your hands find to do with the strength you have been given

then there are those days where each of these kinds of dreams are active - not one will give way to another - they all three put their hands on your breath and awake you are - slumber's bliss drops away and your mind reals as your minds finds itself - these days need to be lived with special attention - today was like this

early morning rain

the clouds above are weeping
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tender kind tears
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cleansing
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gifts
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I rise
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a new day